todae i got a bit the pek chek my tuition kid.. mayb afterall im not as patient as i tot i am.. i tried to be nice n bought him a drink on my way to his hse.. den he said he dun wan e drink coz he dun deserve it.. he even asked me how much e drink costs n wanted to return me e money.. u noe y??? coz he did not do well for his test.. when he said he dun deserve it my heart sank.. i dunno whether to feel sad or wat.. tis kinda things comin frm a sec 2 boy.. on e other hand i felt a bit comforted tt he is so sensible.. i told him its ok try harder next time.. in some way i expected him to b more obedient coz of e "bribe".. but no.. he was distracted the whole 2 hrs.. in e end i did not let him go n e session was extended for half an hr.. coz he juz couldnt understand something simple! i dunno if im frustrated wif myself or him.. i guess wat im feeling is a sense of failure.. perhaps i wanna teach him well too much.. as a result it backfired.. everyone is pressured..
so.. everything boils down to expectations again.. self-expectations, expectations
frm others as well as expectations
of others.. expectations sucks!
will be meeting st later at lot 1.. felt v bad coz i din turn up for her farewell dinner last fri coz of my assignment.. n i cant send her off tmr coz i got fyp.. gonna miss her.. =( tink i better get her something sweet later.. to make up for her.. im such a lousy fren!
was listening to xiao zhu's
hao peng you & xiao chou yu & ai zhuan jiao.. i always tot its best for couples to start from good frenz.. but e songs changed my mindset a bit.. wat if e r/s fails? on top of e heartpain u feel frm a normal breakup.. u hav to bear one more pain.. e pain of losing a gd fren(if things turn ugly).. in other words, one more consideration b4 plunging into a r/s wif a gd fren.. tt was something i overlooked in e past.. damnit! y xiao zhu nv sing this song earlier?!
lets hav a poll.. when faced wif such a situation.. will u go ahead or back out?
