alot of things hav been happenin ard me.. thou they dun involve me directly.. but they do hav an impact on me.. was tellin yf ppl onli noe how to cherish something after losing it.. den he said "ya.. n e things tt u lost.. u will nv b able to get them back".. cruel reality!!! den there was once he asked "is there anything tt last forever?" i was quite annoyed so i said "can u dun always say tis kinda pessimistic stuff?!" n he said "i reallie dunno wat.." piang!! y muz he do tis to me??!! i still wanna believe in eternity u noe..
hav been tokkin to bryan.. who is currently havin problems wif e gf.. to my surprise i stood up for his gf despite how i used to dislike her.. becoz after listenin to him.. i find similar traits btw e gf n e yingying when she was a teen.. now den i know how hard it is to b my bf.. how unfair i was to practice double standards.. i cherish wat he has done for me.. for puttin up wif me for 5 yrs.. when bryan is alr complainin aft 3 mths.. i tink he deserves some respect!
its true tt one stupid mistake is all it takes to regret a lifetime.. but! i hav no regrets.. or i would say up til tis moment in my life.. i do not hav any major regrets.. coz i believe everything happens for a reason.. n all e things tt happened shaped me into a better n stronger person.. so if i can turn back time.. i will still make e same decisions.. =)
den i start to wonder.. when my ex bfs tink of me.. will they smile or frown?
i will smile..
i'll choose to remember e happy times.. tt's e beauty of memories.. u can retain those u wan n delete those u dun.. n memories can accompany me for life unlike human being.. they can leave u anytime.. n memories r irreplacable unlike human being.. one can easily take over e place of another.. tt creates a sense of security somehow.. yup i will keep those happy times in my heart.. *fist punchin chest* hahaha..
well.. singlehood isnt as bad as i tot.. "oso wont die!" quoted frm hx's tuition kid.. hahaha..
