new yr hasnt been happie for me.. i feel v upset now.. i din noe it'll hurt so much.. i noe i could hav made u more insecure.. i noe i shldnt hav wasted my tears.. even w/o u tellin me.. but y am i still doin tis? becoz i love u.. i cldnt bear e tot of losing u.. i hav been tryin but i guess u din c my effort.. mayb its true.. not everything u do, u'll c results.. n as time goes by.. i realise r/s does not involve juz 2 persons.. it involves family, frenz, ex-es etc.. its not as simple anymore.. not like it used to b.. n mayb all these explains y i resist growin up..
