im in a foul mood.. everything is so wrong.. had a long talk wif leslie last nite.. i've come to realise tt e world is not as beautiful as i tot.. not even anywhere close.. all men r rotten.. n e things he said.. tryin to tell me something.. mayb im too sensitive i dunno.. he wanted me to make a pact wif him.. i can nv get attached wif any of his frenz b4 he's attached.. if somethng reallie were to happen i'll hav to ask for 'special request'.. if he approve den can.. wat e hell??? lame lor.. i nv tot anyone can come up wif something lidat.. anw i promised him la.. he's my best buddy wat can i do??? n i believe him.. i trust tt everything he do.. he's tryin to protect me.. coz e whole nite he was like tellin me how dark e world is.. how i naive i am.. how to protect myself n stuff.. as a buddy.. he got no reason to lie to me rite??? so last nite is when i realise how great hy was.. n im startin to b wary of e guys ard me.. esp tis particular person..
suddenly i miss hy.. i decided to call him.. i tried to call him e nite b4 but he din pick up.. i tried again but still to no avail.. so i sms him.. sayin he owe me hotcakes.. tt's wat he do when i dun do well for examz.. buy me hotcakes.. tis time he replied.. so i called him again.. n i was rite!! he ans!! we tokked for a while.. he said he'll buy me e hotcakes next weekend.. n we hang up.. when we hang up its almost 5am.. tis morning at 9am.. my phone rang.. its hy.. he ask me to wake up.. go kitchen.. so i did wat he said.. onli to find hotcakes on my kitchen table!!! n wif a small note attached to it!!! he's forever so sweet towards me.. forever honouring his promises.. forever so dependable.. my heart reallie aches man.. wat e hell am i doin??!!! i wish he wld allow me to b there for him when he's down too.. i wish i cld do something for him too.. i suck!
den i went out wif rs.. i was late for 40 mins.. he was damn pissed off.. hy was nv so pissed when i was late.. so i attitude him.. he scolded me can! wassup wif gals being late? its normal wat! wats e big deal?? can he wait?? so petty lor.. turn off.. n i wasnt in a gd mood.. finally he gave in.. heng he din continue to attitude me lor.. i might juz tell him i feel like gg home man.. i seriously wil lor! din reallie enjoy myself.. mayb coz of wat leslie told me e nite b4.. mayb coz im startin to get reallie turned off.. he is one big MCP can! i always go for guys who r caring sensitive etc.. not tis kind.. i feel weird.. e way i treat him.. reminds me of how i was being treated by yf.. hmmm.. karma??
